Wednesday, May 21, 2008
hey blogging world!
i've moved! haha
check this out ok:
http://imcomingyourway.wordpress.com
see ya ALL!
posted at [10:24:00 PM]
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
prayed tday! alot and yupp watched movie with pearle agn! hahah "what happened in vegas" its a funny show hahah.
just read chu's blog, saw her post on Rob Bell. than out of curiosity went to check out the link on her blog.
i mean WOW. it adds a whole new dimension on the whole burning bush thing in the bible. WE SEE HOW AWESOMELY subtle God can be. and yes! INDEED we are standing on HOLY GROUND! Yod. Hey. Vah. Hey. in hebrew means LORD. "i am the LORD" and those sacred words YOD HEY VAH HEY is not pronounced as ppl felt it too un pronounceble as its actually our BREATH. the vowel sounding YHVH is actually the breath we're breathing and YES YES YES. we are calling out to HIM every moment! like in that link. Rob BEll said that if someone is saying "There is NO GOD" it can be whispered as "YOD HEY VAH HEY" i mean WOW! there is JESUS and we ARE THE GENERATION. believe it or not.
we must be ready for YHVH. for the LORD.
the clock is ticking.
be on guard.
every minute.
now.
posted at [12:35:00 AM]
Saturday, May 17, 2008
GOD has been so so so gracious to me this week. and i can only say soaking in His presence IS SATISFYING.
my week has been really really great and the book i am reading now is "PASSION FOR YOUR NAME" by Tim Hughes has really been a revelation and its as if GOD IS talking to me. i want to go back to my first love, my heart's desire!
worship was really good tday! the holy spirit led the worship the whole time. GOD was, i can say, present! it felt awesome. i felt the anointing and the presence just flow into the room. URGH indescribable! (:
God says to be faithful in all that u do, and He will honour us. HE DID! casting all my cares upon HIM.. letting Jesus increase so that i may decrease!
i am glad its all settled (:
this week has really been a testimony.
soaked.
posted at [11:29:00 PM]
Saturday, May 10, 2008
VERSE 1:
DRAW ME CLOSE TO YOU
NEVER LET ME GO
I LAY IT ALL DOWN AGAIN
TO HEAR YOU SAY THAT I'M YOUR FRIEND
VERSE2
YOU ARE MY DESIRE
NO ONE ELSE WILL DO
COZ NOTHING ELSE COULD TAKE YOUR PLACE
TO FEEL THE WARMTH OF YOUR EMBRACE
HELM ME FIND THE WAY,BRING ME BACK TO YOU
CHORUS:
YOU'RE ALL I WANT
YOU'RE ALL I EVER NEEDED
YOURE ALL I WANT
HELP ME KNOW YOU ARE NEAR
i wanna return to my first love, my heart's desire. this week has been well mixed i guess. but indeed i am stronger in the Lord. i really do want all this to end soon. well well..
firstly, week update!
this has really been a trying week! an amazing week and at the same time a happy week!
first of all, yupp the situation i'm in, well.. thank you lalang! for the 2hr convo on sun night.. thank you for listening to me and putting things into perspective for me! thank u pearle for always being there! seriously! love u man! thank u rl for monday nights convo haha! u guys have really helped me alot in..
1. listening to me
2. correcting me
3. ensuring i know i'm wrong
4. encouraging me to focus on God
thank youuuuu! hahaha.
there's this thing in me that is still clinging on.. holding on real tightly.
than on wednesday there was the Basic Airborne Course Selection! i made it through. i've never dreamt of making it cuz i couldnt do the pull up ;part in the past. but God really helped me! YAY! oh i ran 2.4km in my army uniform with boots in 9:45!!! TAHNK YOU JESUS!
so my course starts on the 4june and i will jump on the 18june. pls pray for me. see you guys from up there!!!
hahah
and yes!! i got 3 certs form medic course already! hahaha
1. CPR qualified personal
2. Automatic External Defibrillator qualified personal. that shock heart thing
3. Paramedic Level 1 trained.
HAPPINESS is knowing that Jesus loves me and happiness is knowing that God above me is looking after me and watching over me in LOVE!!
now in my life. though there's this emptiness cuz of whatever that's happening.. buti know that JESUS is in me.
and when we ALL get to heaven what a day of rejoicing that would be!
as for u, my dearest fren, u are still precious to me even though its might not be
reciprocated. u will forever be a part of my life. still thank God for you, even now. our friendship is worth much more than falling into bits because of this.. to me! (:
read this:-
really, this kept me loving you all these years and will cont to. as u know its a special friendship!
LOVE is patient
Love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self seeking
It is not easily angered
It keeps no record of wrongs
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
LOVE NEVER FAILS.
1 Cor 13:4-8
yupp i know i have disappointed u in many occasions, i am sorry.
OOOOOOKKKKKKKAYYY! i am excited bout my life.
anyway...
seeing my juniors rock the stage ytd at their concert makes me smile real broadly! GOOD JOB YC! and ky and jw and all all u! u were amazing!
makes me think of the two years i was in choir doing the same thing in 2006 and 2007. the singing first half and the get wild choreo in the second! hahaha.
i sure do miss my dance partner! (: u were excellent tday yee chuin! hahahahah
sometimes its easy to tell people,"PRAISE HIM IN THE STORM"
but when situations in one's life call for that.. hoho. one crumbles like i did. but now NONONO!
i'll praise YOU in the storm. in times of victory and happiness, we praise Him. in times of defeat and sadness, we too, praise HIM!
:)
posted at [10:43:00 AM]
it hurts to see that on ur blog.
i know my God can still do wonders.
*clinging on
posted at [1:32:00 AM]
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open my eyes to the things I see
Show me how to love like you, have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdom cause
As I walk from earth in to eternity
phew, thanks wilfred, esther, ruth, pearle girl and othniel for all the advice, encouragement, that making me know i'm wrong and my mistake and all in all... u know, i feel really loved.
yeah went to pearle girl's hse tday with rl and othniel, yeah rl and girl talked to me, listened yeah.. they're so nice. haha. sorry world, was emotional and yeah really stressed out the past wk or so.
and u, thanks for that msg. it was like another stab.
another u, i aint gna give us up too easily, it's really pain to do so. we'll come out stronger i hope. thrashing session soon. i hope. like wat wilfred said.. this is the devil's ploy to destroy us before breaking up e cell. it aint gna work. SATAN GET BEHIND ME.
its really pain to see u 2 really enjoying each other's company along with ezra while i can only sit at that corner, to swallow that lump in my throat and trying my very best not to think of the happy times tgt, us 3. all that laughter u both had.. while i spent almost 2 weeks fasting, praying, crying out to GOD and asking why. i couldnt bear it. its pain. 
this is all i want LORD (: nothing else. that we three from NOW ON WILL BE CLEAN with each other. especially with u my dear sis. like wat i told u sis, i really DO THANK GOD FOR U. even now. u're a blessing in my life. u too fren, rmb i said the min we'd be is close fren? yeah. meant it. it aint easy yes i know, but.. i know my God never fails.
memories.
pain.
just for ur info sis, i kept all ur nice sms from so long ago... reading it now is really really....
:(
yeah memories.
we'd be ok soon.
we'd be
i know
time. memories
4 years.
urgh
STOP EMOING LA. pearle girl said its my day... i wanna emo.
dont care.
posted at [8:34:00 PM]
Saturday, May 03, 2008
i give all to you Lord.
its the year of sacrifice. i just really hope its the abraham sacrifice. GOD PLS PROVIDE A WAY! give me a ram.. i dont wanna kill my isaac :(
you know wat i mean.
on a lighter note.
worship was good tday anddd there were ppl in the audience!
i do love the month of may!
:D
posted at [9:56:00 PM]
just read my archives. was really retarded. my sec sch days were.. omg.. childish. hahah. yeah, i do miss team 5.. just thinking bout it. well... 4 years on, things have changed
-youth ppl
-church ppl
-many others
but you oh Lord never change. will never ever.
ytd, 2may, i declare it a day i had NOTHING to do. anyway decided to meet mod at the airport today and follow her run errants, than went to tj and sit in for my junior's choir prac. they sounded ok (: yc.. relax ok (you have done a gd job!) than left to find pearle girl.
she was at ttsh cuz her grandfather was warded, had dinner with her at delifrance and we talked. i mean, that session with her was really great and after that i prayed for her. haha girl i hope u are feeling better. i love u okay!
met joan after that, chatted till bout 12plus than i went home! hahah. miss her alot man!
inevitably, u are being missed AGAIN. hai.. oh well.
posted at [2:44:00 AM]
Friday, May 02, 2008
urgh.. tiring! on the other hand, army's been good recently. got an airborne selection coming out next wed. i will get through that. hahah.. i love long hols! from wed night all the way to sun night! actually i'm getting quite sick of the whole army routine. it wears me out! BIG TIME.
oh went for class outing to mind cafe! it was so funny. love my class, their unglamness! ahahha. went for dinner at this horrid place. $20 bucks flew! and my mum only called after the food was ordered to tell me to bring alot of ppl over for food cuz my parents had bbq with their friends and had REALLY ALOT OF EXTRAS. sushi trays were practically thrown away! urgh. in the end wanhsin, cheryl, wenyang, daniel came hahah. ate, talk, chat and played cards hahah. they left bout midnight. hahah.
seriously, i miss my class alot, those days we'd come to school early and give that sian face. hahah. i miss tj. i miss school and worst of all, i miss mugging. hahah
you've been in my prayers for so long. nothing seems to be improving? i want it to, badly. its really hurting so badly. GOD.. U THERE? liberate me from all these... :(
i miss u so badly
posted at [9:10:00 AM]